dreams of becoming a foot model

dreams of becoming a foot model

To begin with, this isn’t an insightful, inspirational, introspective post just a reminder and update. Last year I announced that I would be running a full marathon and keep everyone updated. I lied – kind of. Last year was an odd year; one of growth but also one of many failures.

So just to give you a few updates:

  1. I dyed my hair (shout out to Gabryelle Shultz from EU and Ray from Ba’Dazz Salon)!!!
  2. Around mid-November (Thanksgiving) my marathon training went down the drain and I decided to scale my run down to a half marathon.
  3. I will not be graduating in May but in December
  4. I have no idea what my next step is (but I’m ok with it)

As I have been training for this half marathon I have realized that if I ever had any desire to become a foot model (I don’t) I won’t be able to. I have had blisters and currently have calluses (I am in dire need of a pedicure) from running. Training has been tough, and there are days where the only time I have to train is 5 am – and I don’t think I will ever be one of those people who loves waking up super early to run romantically into the sunrise (if you are, good for you). I also enjoy eating good and yummy food and don’t know if I can ever be a runner who lives on eggs and protein bars. I have also realized that my body is stronger than I originally thought it was – if I can run literally anyone can run.

All this to say I’m very nervous and excited for my race! And while I won’t ever be able to be a foot model – I’ll have killer legs.

P.S. My race is in St. Louis on April 9 (Palm Sunday), if you would like to join me at the Finish Line – I’d love to have you there.

I just felt like running – Forrest

I just felt like running – Forrest

I’m not the most active person, actually according to the activity monitor on my phone my lifestyle is pretty sedentary.

But a few days ago, I was “surfing” the internet late at night and I came across an article about marathon running. As the true researcher that I am, one article led to another and before I knew it I had paid and registered for the Go! St. Louis marathon on April 9.

I didn’t realize what I had done until after I did it, when I received the confirmation e-mail which stated that there would be NO REFUNDS. I then decided to share what I had done on Facebook. I received support from many people whom I love and then my dad and brother started commenting – which was a good thing. I started thinking afterwards, whoa I need to do this and I need to train. So this whole week I have been thinking how can I keep myself accountable – by sharing it with you guys! I decided to blog about my marathon training progress (on some days it might seem like regress). I didn’t want to I haven’t been truly active in about a decade and did I mention I am overweight. I am also not the best writer; I forget words in English and Spanish on most days. These are probably two of the most vulnerable areas in my life which I didn’t want anyone to probe into – my self image and my intelligence.

Regardless of how I see myself or feel I want to share this journey with everyone. I might blog 3 days in a row, once a week or once every two weeks but I will finish this 26 mile run (I cringe as I type).

See you April 9th,


P.S. If you want to join me in my running before the race, during the race or even just cheer at the finish line on April 9th – Come!

A Portrait of Grace

A Portrait of Grace

I was lucky enough to be born to a portrait of grace.

A portrait of love, which to me…

Often mirrored that of my Heavenly Father’s.

From a young age GRACE was a constant reminder in my life;

from the warm embrace after the rebuke or the spanking that was “forgotten”,

GRACE was present.

As I grew older I clearly remember the first time returning home…

and the second and the third.

Each time more broken than the last.

Yet I was always greeted at the door by a portrait of GRACE.

You see, I was the prodigal daughter, the one who left

and to my own demise ended up in a pig’s field.

Yet somehow I was always reminded of the portrait of GRACE.

I recall the last time I returned home,

knowing that as soon as I passed the doors threshold

I would be safe.

Now I look back on my life and know God’s grace was working,

through my parents and I am amazed.

Amazed that he would unconditionally love this screw up.

Amazed that HE would send HIS son to die for me.

Amazed that HE would willingly accept my brokenness.

Amazed that Jesus stood in my place.

Amazed at HIS GRACE.

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The Ugly Child


I’ve never been the prettiest, smartest, fastest, definitely not thinnest, most popular, funniest or coolest… I am actually the total and complete opposite, Lol but you know what – it’s ok. I’ve learned through a few tear filled nights and frustrating days that (as cliche as it sounds) inside beauty is more important than outside beauty. You see when God formed us he didn’t mess up with that extra mole or accidentally choose your hair color he formed us as a work of art carefully creating us.
It amazes me that the creator of the universe would choose to call me His beloved, the apple of His eye! That he would worry so much as to know the number of hairs on my head!
Now I am not saying it’s easy being what society considers an “ugly” child lol but I am saying there is hope and someone who sees you in a completely different light. Someone who has called you His own and who gave His very life for you. This wasn’t really a planned out blog but just a reminder to you and a note to myself that I am loved – you are loved! You are beautiful even if you’re like me and usually only hear it from your dad (dad’s don’t lie) – it’s true! You are beautiful!



They tell me it was all a BIG BANG!

A dense point in space.

An absent designer, a universe without a creative mind.

Your word says you called out the light and with your words formed what i call home.

The heavens your throne – the earth your footstool.

You set the boundaries of the sea and marked out the foundations of the Earth.

Now tell me Mr. Hawking were you there when the earth was laid or when the first black hole was arranged.

Degrasse does your understanding truly grasp the measurements of the Cosmos much less the planet on which you reside?

 Wegener have you entered into the springs of the sea or walked in the recesses of the deep to actually see continental drift?

You want me to agree with your theories, as sound as they may be – I cannot accept the fact that you discredit my God’s omnipotence.

These theories which you defend require much more faith than most can understand.

You see in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God…

and God saw that everything he had made and behold, it was very good – In the beginning.

*Bible passages used: Isaiah 66 – Proverbs 8 – Job 38 – John 1 – Genesis 1*

Ride o’ Die

For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:7, 8 ESV)

As I think of this verse it’s truth resounds in my head. Christ died for me even when no one would give two cents for me! He understood the concept of ride o’ die way before it was popular. Today is not a day of mourning but a day of rejoicing!
His death brought me freedom and hope.

If you’ve thought “I’m not good enough”, “I’ve messed up too much”, “my life is too full of sin”, the Bible says “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. (Romans 3:23, 24 NIV)”
That means YOU, you have been justified, you were died for, you were loved by the creator! Jesus took the payment that was meant for us and spared us from death. In other words we did the crime and he paid the time.

Today I invite you to meditate on these truths.
1. You were died for
2. You are loved
3. There is an invitation for relationship with Jesus

And if you need to hear it again from someone else watch this video: the Death of YOLO

I’m getting a little dusty!

then the Lord God formed the man of dust from the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living creature. (Genesis 2:7 ESV)

As I am learning more and more about the earth and it’s process I am learning more and more about the truth of God. Genesis 2:7 rang a bell in me.

The earth’s crust contains most of the 100 or so chemical elements discovered thus far. Only eight of them make up more than 98 percent of the crust. These are, in order of abundance, oxygen, silicon, aluminum, iron, calcium, magnesium, sodium and potassium. In addition to water, we are composed of about 6 percent minerals: calcium, phosphorous, potassium, sulfur, sodium, chlorine, magnesium and iron – do you see a pattern here?

There was no way that the author of Genesis 2:7 knew that our mineral makeup was similar to the earth’s.
The idea of us being composed by different minerals wasn’t around until 330 BC when Aristotle made the hypothesis. The periodic table wasn’t composed until 1869 by Mendeleev. Genesis was written in 5 BC!

It amazes me to think of a creator who would get down and personally create a human from dirt and breath his very own life into him! God wants to have a relationship with you!

So think about it, look it up! God and science are compatible! True science proves that God exists and that the Bible is infallible and inerrant.